one day one of my friends asked me-wats best way to commit suicide?
i replied-why r u askin such stupid thing? y d hell u wanna do such a thing?
he looked into my eyes and asked-give me a good reason to live
i said-think wat ll happen to others who r connected to u . ur family ur friends ...
he said - i guess initially they may cry a bit but after that they ll ve less trouble which i use to create for them. i havent given them any reason to be happy or to smile so far..only troubled them and made them cry. so if i cant bring any joy by my living may be i can just reduce their sorrow a bit..

i looked at him..he walked away.. i just kept lookin at him disappearing away from my sight..

when you break down or get angry at least you are showing some emotion and but when I am not in a position to burst out my emotions it only builds up within. cant say what is going to happen but it is only adding ability to tolerate. tolerating has become a part of my life..from home to school to work to... i dont what next !!!but even this cant keep people happy..oh god! give me more strength so that i can do something which can bring some joy to some one's life..help me lord.

when the pain becomes unbearable and breaks your tolerance you cry expressing your hurt and pain. But beyond a limit the tears dry up and you dont cry anymore. The more you go through it the more stonelike you become; hardened up to face the eventualities of life. If a person is not able to vent out his feeling and frustrations for something he dislikes it shows he is afraid of something or someone. This fear haunts him day and night and for days and years and stays with him life long but no one understands the reason or cause of such behaviour. I wish i could share more...